...I'm scared.
I kind of just realized it today. I'm 1-week away from starting my new job, and I've got butterflies in my tummy - not just with excitement, but there's definitely some fear in there too.
What if I can't make ends meet with how much I'm getting paid?
What if I absolutely hate it?
What if I totally suck?
What if / what if / WHAT IF!?!?
I'm going a little bit crazy... mostly about the money thing. I have been working so hard to pay off my debt, and this will be taking a huge step back for me financially. I'm trying to think of the big picture (happiness / future career / all that jazz), but it is certainly a bit jarring. All of these "what if's" are swimming in my brain and making me dizzy.
I need to stay calm and breathe.
I need to take it one day at a time.
I see why people stay at jobs for so long once they're comfortable there - even if they hate it! It's easier. It's convenient. There's no fear of the unknown. You've already built up the trust, and now I have to earn it all over again. I have to learn how to do things again. I will be out of my comfort zone.
I think these are all pretty valid fears, and I'm sure a lot of people go through the exact same thing, and ask themselves the same questions. But I'm going to face those fears. It's scary, yes, but I can't keep living my life without taking that risk.
Walk face-first into the "What If" and say I don't really know right now, but I'll figure it out!
That's what I'm going through at the moment.
I'm scared, but I'll be okay. A life lived in fear is not a life at all.
Wish me luck...
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