Sometimes stuff just doesn't happen the way you want it to...

Well, the news I received wasn't what I was expecting.

The big secret is that I had an interview with a company that would have been a HUGE step up for me career-wise.  It would have been amazing, and working with the company would have been really exciting.  I would have been working alongside some awesome women close to my own age, in a fun environment, working in a position I would have been crazy excited about getting up and doing every single day.  The added bonus is I would be making twice the amount I'm making now salary-wise, PLUS benefits.  

And I nailed the interview.  I mean NAILED it.  It was the best one I've had in a really long time.

But I didn't get the job.

I guess they were looking for someone with more experience in that company's field, and although they really liked me, they had to go another direction. 

I couldn't have been more disappointed yesterday. 

I cried.  A lot. 

I try not to get too excited about something with an unknown outcome.  I tried really hard not to think of what I could do with this company.  I tried not to think of the fact that I could have my debt paid off before the end of this year with my new salary.  I tried not to start planning my new commute, or how I would decorate my new office.  But in the back of my mind, I still did.

And now I have to move on.  I feel like I've reached a crossroads in my life, and I have a choice to go one way or another.  I don't have a lot of freedom right now because of my debt, and that pisses me off to no end.  It limits my decisions, and makes me hate my debt even more.  I guess that's a good thing because I'll keep working as hard as I possibly can to be free of it.  But that doesn't change my feelings of being trapped right now.

Today is much better than yesterday.  Tomorrow will be even better.  I know I need to keep my chin up and just keep plugging away.  I had my time to mope, and now it's time to brush myself off and get on with my life.  After a glass of wine or 3, of course. ;)

Then this popped up in my Pinterest, and made me feel a lot better:

Well, I've already got most of that figured out.  I just need to find out what will make me happy work-wise, and do that.  It's simpler than I make it out to be, but that's really what matters in the end.

Just do what makes you happy.

I think I can do that.
:)